10/06/2017  Shattered Memories Category: Blogging Ayumi's sadness was overpowering her deeper everyday. From the day she let go of her kids her depression worsened. Moving from place to place she tried to disassociate from her horrible experience. Ayumi's children were her entire world. That being said, she knew deep in her broken heart that Gage and Emma would be better off without her. They would never have to witness her debilitating illness. She suffered with despair and despondency for her entire existence. Never being able to truly be happy, she slipped deep into the abyss of desolation. For many years she hid away in the Carpathian Mountains in Romania. Living in a rundown cabin, she isolated herself, completely disappearing from the world. Often she thought about her children, sometimes finding a subtle smile and joy in her broken heart. A vivid memory of their voices or seeing their beautiful faces. Ayumi often wondered if her daughter would even remember her. Emma was so very young when she had to leave them behind. Her fair haired pretty little girl, so young, so innocent. Most likely Emma would have no recollection of her mother at all. This deepened Ayumi's grieving condition. Emma was only four years old when Ayumi had to say goodbye to her precious daughter. Ayumi began to have lucid dreams of both Gage and Emma. Sometimes the visions were so real she felt she could almost touch them. She would awaken to lonely darkened room, tears would stream down her cheeks. Nightly the same dream occurred, bringing Ayumi near to the brink of insanity. "Enough Ayu, you need to find your kids. You know Gage is residing in the Black Kingdom. King David is long gone." As for Emma, she did not know where she would have ended up at. She hoped the blacksmith found loving parents for her tiny heart, Emma LeStat. One day she would search for them, if even just to say how sorry she was for leaving them. Ayumi had one other child in her lifetime with a another man. She too had to let the father take her young daughter named Blaze away. Grief stricken, Ayumi knew she just was too ill to raise children, to bring them up right and happy. She married a different man years later.  Never for one second, forgetting her other children, her heart always remained shattered. After her divorce, she knew it was now time to reach out to her kids. She had found Gage and Blaze they were easy to find. her broken heart once again was decimated over her children.  They were all adults by now. One night Ayumi reached out to her kids in a dream state. She used a spell she had been taught by an elder vampire.  She began projecting her memories of that fateful day she had to say farewell to Gage and Emma. She hoped that the spell would reach into Emma's mind. Hopefully sparking some memories of Ayumi and that terrible day. Ayumi did not do this to sadden the now adult daughter of hers. She was hopeful, that possibly Emma would remember Gage and herself. 09: PM 3 Comments  (Add Comment)  | 6 Kudos  Back to Blog List

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	Emma Swan-Jones Lestat *M*Loves My Killian Jones(Captain Hook) And Our Chidren(OUAT)(BK)(SH)(ETH)-Black Council Member-	Shatter Memories, Swan Lake, The Past Coming To Life! Emma didn't know of many who were in the foster homes she stayed at, which never was for any length of time. She remembered more the times she spent alone the solitude, whether it be in a home of strangers or on the streets in a shelter that was more warmth to her. One home being that of Ingrid that later was revealed in Storybrooke as the Snow Queen. There was always a time in her life with memories of a family that part was never clear to her. Only in her dreams did she remember certain times. Of playing near the courtyard that went on forever seeing the swings she would be found by. It all ended up in her images at night when her eyes were closed to a dream that would show her such a place. The places she had lived when that age, there was always an empty space before all the times in the foster care system. I time she later knew of from hearing it from the ones she knows as family in the small town of Maine. She knew the story of being put in the magical wardrobe as her father fought the black knights brought on by the evil queen. She would have never believed such a tale she did once the curse was broken. It was her son that brought her there and believed in her something she wasn't used to. The time arriving as a baby in the wardrobe to the Enchanted Forest is all dream to her to what happened after. Yet part of her knowing there is more to that time than she told. She had always wondered why she was left alone after being born on that same day being left alone in the forest. It wasn't until later she had learned the one Geppetto, who made the magical wardrobe. Wanting his son to go through with her he would protect Emma to watch over her destiny. Somehow when she was alone after being born, she was never told of those years. Only when she was old enough did she remember the foster care places that she stayed at. It was learned until later in life of why Geppetto son left her alone. She did know of whom the son was known to her as August Booth or Pinocchio. Having only a few of her things she had saved in a box. She showed what was saved to Killian knowing it was time then to open up what her life was. One thing she had of her past was her baby blanket with her name on it. As is truly magical to her it was the only thing that showed her who she is a part of her. Her life now is amazing with the love of her life Killian their marriage the gift of their children is the most incredible feeling to her. She always knows that her husband is there beside her as she is for him nothing will ever change that. Many times, when watching their youngest daughter play, she would have visions of her own young life. Always one thought that was deep in her mind came to life in her memories. That was of her and a young boy. She could still hear their laugher and playing in the largest garden of roses she ever seen. Seeing the Swans that were so beautiful they seemed to like her and the boy. Remembering one time when they used to hide in the tree house they made. Hearing the boy asking for them to have a blood oath. She was frightened of the blood "No Geji that will hurt." She hides her hands behind her back. After his words to her she trusted him, she knew she held out her hand to him. Remembering strongest a woman that was such a gentle force in her life, it was a loss to not know who she now is. Many times, their daughter would run to her, she held her it was then she would hear the kind voice of the woman saying. "We love you Emma and everything will be alright, one day you will return to us." Only part of those dreams was a part that stood out from her younger life. Only seeing her in dreams she would have and hearing such a kind and loving voice she had to be someone that took care of her. One part of her images her memories of a boy one that was another memory she had seen even more now as if getting close to knowing who he is. Still was remembering that and the day she was sent away. Hearing the kind lady telling "My sweat fair haired little girl I am truly am sorry I love you so much with my life. You need to go away and fill your destiny." Emma's tears flowed down her face "no please no I love you so much and Geji? What did I do wrong why do I have to go?" After clinging and hugging the lady she slightly turned around seeing an older man there holding out his hand The tears flowing down her face she turned back looking up at the castle seeing the young boy looking out the window. How was saying something she couldn't hear him. She held the man's handing looking back at both of them wiping her eyes with her baby blanket. Even a baby rattle she saved with a large L engraved in it. She walked away still eyeing the lady and little boy watching her. She gave a little wave to him she couldn't stop the tears falling down her face. Posted by Emma Swan-Jones Lestat *M*Loves My Killian Jones(Captain Hook) And Our Chidren(OUAT)(BK)(SH)(ETH)-Black Council Member- on Thu Nov 23, 2023, 00:11 [Reply to this]

	Black King Gage LeStat, Unconditionally Loves Helena Laine, Site Co Owner, BE Emperor, BK Ruler, Mr Duggars Mentor (Jacket Slut) BK BE TBC TGB SH HOD	Shattered Memories, The Dance Of Two Swans Gage stood in the darkness, lost in his thoughts. Knowing Emma was near, he disappeared into a memory of a time that happened so very long ago. Near the Garden Of Obsidian Thorns was a deep pond. Water lilies decorated the stillness upon the water. This was a favorite location of Gage and his little sister Emma. The tiny fair haired child smiled as two graceful Swans appeared upon the waters. The pair moved eloquently upon their wake. The waterfowl were unafraid of the children. The two majestic Swans appeared to dance under the silver moon. They hovered gently, gazing upon Gage and Emma. Emma clapped her tiny hands then exclaimed. "Look Geji, birds. Two pretty birds." Gage smiled at his wee sibling. "Em, those are not just birds, they are Swans. Indeed, they are very pretty. If you ever see Swans, I want you to remember, I love you and I will always protect you. The swans only come to the Thorn Garden Pond when it is a full moon, to grace us with their beauty. Em, I have never seen them at any other time, except during a full moon. Swans are very special, Em. In fact, they are rather ugly when they are little then turn into such a beautiful site, such as this. Aren't they mesmeric Em?" Gage pointed at the enchanting pair, under the tapestry of stars. Their white plumage reflected the light of the Moon's embrace. "Come Em, let's go play. "Gage took Emma to a large Oak tree. From deep inside of his trouser pockets, he pulled a small pocket knife, also some crayons. Gage handed the crayons to Emma then he carved two Swans into the tree bark. "This is so we will never forget, Em. So you will never forget, that swans are beautiful. No matter their age. They will grow into beauty, even if they are hideous when they are small." Gage told Emma to color the Swans that he carved with his pocket knife. He smiled as he watched her mark with the crayons into the naked wood. Once she had finished, Gage told her how good of a job she had done. He carved a G + E into the tree under the two swans. "The Swans come to the Obsidian Thorn Pond, just for us Em. This will be our special place, now and forever. Remember this always, if you are sad or confused, you can come here. The Swans will come to you then cover you in their peace. Promise me Em, You will never forget that." Gage hugged his tiny sister after she finished coloring around their initials in an awkward heart that she drew. "Em, it seems there is a curse over the LeStat's. Everything I love, seems to go away. It always happens to me. First Father; then Mother. If you ever become lost. Try to find your way back here, to the Obsidian Thorn Pond. Wish with all of your heart and might under a silver moon, that the swans will come. They will guide you back to me. I never want to lose you Em. You are my little sister, I love you very much. I would hate it Em, if you would come up missing as well." The dream state that Gage was lost in, became a nightmare. He was observing his Mother Ayumi and his baby sister Em from his bedroom window. Gage peered off into the distance where his Mother and Em were. Ayumi was crying while embracing Em. What was happening, Gage thought to himself. He noticed a villager off in the distance walking towards his baby sister. His Mother was on her knees holding little Em in her arms. Tears were freely flowing from her eyes.Ayumi gently directed Em towards the stranger. Little Em walked reluctantly towards him. The two of them, quickly walked into the dense trees of the Black Forest. In that moment, Em was gone. Gage held his hands against the window pane. "No, no, Em... Oh, Em... not you too... Why Mother, why?" Posted by Black King Gage LeStat, Unconditionally Loves Helena Laine, Site Co Owner, BE Emperor, BK Ruler, Mr Duggars Mentor (Jacket Slut) BK BE TBC TGB SH HOD on Wed Nov 22, 2023, 18:11 [Reply to this]

	Black Princess Lady Maika Rose Pendragon-LeStat*M*Forever in Love With My Malek And Loves Our Daughter Lilianna(Sister To Derik And Lily) (Raised By Ayumi)(BK)(OUAT)(SH)(ETH)!	Shattered Memories Part2 (The tortured nightmare begins) Maika’s reply. I have permission to use Gage and Derik's and Liy's and Lilianna's name. Maika has had many happy years when remembering her time being brought up by Ayumi. She remembers the love and patience she was giving when growing up. There were many nights of her having nightmares of her father killing her family. Her mom and baby sister were killed in such a horrid way. She and her brother Derik watched everything that happened Remembering her dead mother and baby sister laying so still in a pool of their own blood. No one could ever forget that the best they could do was honor their memory. It still haunted Maika to this day of her family the worst part of all knowing this spirit took her sister. Looking around as much she could even her brother Derik was gone. As she laid there that faithful night on the cabin floor. Every scene that night was so powerful she passed out. Briefly waking up to see the ghostly imagine holding her baby sister gently in her arms then disappearing. Maika tried to yell the screaming from that night had ruined her voice. Only being able to make little sounds as she was very young then. Ayumi was able to make her feel loved and safe still the nightmares haunted her as well. A few years went by where her new mom was able to get her to talk and to feel not so secluded and scared when she was first found. They even went and burned down the old family cabin where she hugged Ayumi as they watched the flames and smoke. Watching it as it sees it all rise up into the sky. That has helped in some ways, still the fact her family is gone. Later on, in life as she was growing up, she met Ayumi’s family they as well took her in as family. She concentrated on one of Lestat's, they were about the same age they grew up being so close together. Malek will forever be the love of her life in every way possible. It truly is always love at first sight when she sees him. Loving their beautiful daughter Lilianna. There was a family missing her brother Derik and sister lily not knowing Derik at the time. Some of her memories had been blocked from her mind. She has had many talks with Malek and her father-in-law Gage. Both of them agreed to go see Dr Dash at the Claybury Institute Silent Hill. After many long talks she knew it was the best thing to do. she wanted to make the trip alone that would the first courageous step she needed. Finally getting the nerve up to go and see what the good Dr could do for her not knowing what to expect once she got there. Looking around the place it was an older looking place she could tell that others were there. she hoped that she could find the answers here. Seeing the Dr arrived she smiled at him and shook his hand. " Hello Dr. Dash, I am Maika Lestat I know my husband and father-in-law talked to you." She was offered a seat as the Dr didn't say much looking around the place a bit more and being a bit nervous. "I am hoping that you can help me I many memory blocks of my childhood. I know I have family members that are out there I just don't remember them. I sense them though I do not see them." Waiting for him to reply he seemed to have the look on his face of processing it all and figuring out what she needed. You see I have all these dreams and memories of them I want to see them. I don't want to get so lost I forget who I am if that makes sense." It was good for her to get all this out to some she seemed to trust even in the first meeting." Hoping that being here will help bring back some of the darker memories. So many years it still feared to her to core to remember that night's horrendous murders of her family. Never ever will she acknowledge the fact that she had father. Might be a part to her that she needs to address with the Dr hoping he will help her. Maybe even to find her brother again she still has deep pains losing her mom and baby sister. Posted by Black Princess Lady Maika Rose Pendragon-LeStat*M*Forever in Love With My Malek And Loves Our Daughter Lilianna(Sister To Derik And Lily) (Raised By Ayumi)(BK)(OUAT)(SH)(ETH)! on Thu Sep 28, 2023, 22:09 [Reply to this]

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